life is full of uncertainties.. you wouldn't know what would happen at the next second...
went to a special home in petaling jaya just now.. what i can say is that we are so fortunate.. looking at these special kids, i felt sad.. they are so pity.. =/
well.. i'm more to focus on a child only..
 Name: Foo Xin Rou
Age: 15 years 7 months 6 days
Gender: Female
Date of Birth: April 2, 1995
Sickness: Spina bifida
Father: Foo Choo Hock
Mother: Wong Lee Hong
History: Foo Xin Rou nick named "Girl Girl" was brought to our center by her father, who is jobless and mother left her after delivery. The father had came to center in the first few years, but never went near Xin Rou, he would just stand there and watch her. |
Xin Rou was born with the spinal core out side of the body. She need an operation to place the spinal core back inside the body.
Xin Rou sometime has fits too. Normally it will hold her for thirty seconds every time. but, there were two times she really suffered for more than a few hours during her fit.
She has improved a lot over these years, from just lying still, she now knows how to crawl. Most of the children in this center are language experts; even Girl Girl can understand four languages: Bahasa Malaysia, English, Mandarin and Tamil. She is now learning at the level of a 3-4 year old child. She has a smiling face all day which is why most visitors know her very well
this is the girl that i was take caring of.. don't know why, i see sorrow in her eyes..
when we were inside that house greeting the person in charge, she grabbed my attention.. she was lying there and asking me to play with her.. well.. i did approached her after i've done with the visiting letter stuff.. she was so pity that she can't chew things properly and can't drink sweet beverage.. even though she can't chew properly, but she seems like wanting to eat the tea break that the special home provide them so much.. she asked me to get one for her and asked me to feed her.. it's kind of hard to feed her properly though.. need to be really brave because if the food wasn't placed in the right "place" in her mouth, you'll need to get it out of her mouth WITH YOUR HAND.. as in putting your fingers into her mouth and get the food that was not chewed.. well.. it seems gross to certain people.. chris played with her too after that.. then i get back in and play with her again.. well.. i couldn't forget her look when she stares at the CCTV screen.. she can't really move alot.. and she was staring at the screen and seems sad for not being able to move around like other kids.. her eye sight was so saddening.. i felt so bad after seeing her like that, and i guess she saw my reaction.. she was so so sensible that she know that i felt bad for all the kids in that house and started to play with me.. she's like teaching me numbers in chinese and some weird language that maybe tamil.. well.. when i see her yawning, i felt like letting her there and let her sleep.. but...... i wonder if i was wrong to do that.. when i say bye bye to her, i see her eyes turning watery.. i felt really bad.. really really bad..
while i was inside that room, i hear kids yelling and crying.. it's so depressing.. millions of feelings came across me.. looking at them, i felt that all of us are so fortunate.. i used to complain alot to my parents.. but look at them, they have no parents!! i heard "girl girl" (the girl i approached) calling the founder of the house as "papa".. it sounds so sad yet complicated.. girl girl pointed the portrait of the founder and tell me "papa".. (means she sees the guy as his father..) these kids are children that were given up by their parents.. how cruel these parents are.. from what i heard, many of them are given birth by teenagers that were pregnant from "accident".. these people are so irresponsible!!! how can they do that to their own child??? if it wasn't their own fault for acting like a grown up when they weren't, these wouldn't have happened.. i guess this is why i against sex before marriage so much..
appreciate your current condition.. even the worst condition you ever had couldn't be compared to these kids..
all of us are so blessed!
dear girl girl, may god bless you!
